A Logical Conclusion

This whole thing really doesn't matter in the grand scheme of things, but I feel compelled to write it out anyway. In my previous post, I speculated that perhaps my co-worker lied to me. My co-worker knows that I have a massive crush on a guy who works in a different department than ours. My co-worker has recently told me that this guy blatantly lied to me about having a girlfriend. You see, I asked this guy out for a drink, and he told me he has a g/f. According to my co-worker, that was one big, fat lie. Well, tonight, I spoke to a person who I actually trust. Another person who works in the store, who knows everybody. This person asked my crush if he has a g/f, and my crush said yes. So, my co-worker is the one who blatantly lied to me. He doesn't really know my crush, yet he just made up this lie about him, and spread that lie to me. It's not like I benefit from this; the fact is that my crush has a g/f. My point is that I'm glad to now know that he didn't lie to me. Namaste.

Highly Illogical

About a month ago, I took a chance at work. A younger guy, who I've had a crush on for over two years now, came back from another part of Missouri to work at my store again. I felt exhilarated that he was back. I just love looking at him. I also kind of felt like, "Oh, crap, now I have to deal with these silly feelings all over again. He's probably never even noticed me." Well, after working up a great amount of courage, I started making polite chit chat here and there with him. Then, as I said, about a month ago I walked up to him and asked him if he'd like to go out for a drink sometime. He looked surprised, and quickly said, "Actually, I have a girlfriend, but thanks." I was disappointed, but it's not like it made my attraction to him go away. I would keep finding excuses to go back to his department, just because I like looking at him. Pretty harmless, really. My co-workers have all been very aware of all this. Exactly one week ago today, they told me that I need to forget about him, because they found that he had lied to me about having a girlfriend. They're claiming that he blabbed to someone in our department that he blatantly lied. That's what the official word around the campfire is. I instantaneously felt very hurt, and unattractive to boot. But did I stop thinking about it all? No, of course not. Life is not that easy, at least not for me. It's like being under a spell; the spell has to run its course. I'm also a classic overthinker, so I've been trying to analyze this for the past week. First of all, this is all second and third hand information. I don't actually know that this is the truth. The only way that I could find is to go directly to the source (my crush) and ask him if it's true. I'm choosing to not do that, obviously. It just doesn't really seem like a great idea. Secondly, this whole ordeal doesn't make sense to me. If he, being put on the spot, just lied and said, "I have a girlfriend," that would imply that he doesn't want to go out for a drink with me and wants to spare my feelings. That's really not so bad; I know I've done that to guys before. I haven't done that in the workplace, though, where you really have to keep your mouth shut about something if you don't want the whole store talking about it. Information spreads really quickly where I work. So, it's very contradictory to tell a little white lie in order to spare a girl's feelings, then turn around and blab to her co-worker that you blatantly lied to her. At the end of that equation, my feelings are anything but spared.